In hindsight


It's such an interesting thing. Sometimes it drags (hello Monday-Friday) and other times it seemingly goes at warp speed. We can't bottle it up, nor go back in time as much as we wish we could.  When I clicked on my timehop app on my phone I was all too well reminded that two years ago today was my first day back at work after having P. As soon as I saw the photo pop up it hit me like a ton of bricks. I remember taking this photo and subsequently sobbing after I put her to bed that evening.

Those first couple of weeks back at work were difficult. P was still not sleeping through the night and every morning I left her it felt as it my heart was breaking all over again. Honestly - she was just too damn little to leave - even with a generous maternity leave of 4.5 months. America has maternity leave so darn backwards.

However now, two years later, I can honestly say that I feel like everything was a blessing in disguise. Had I not returned to work I may have never developed my love of photography to the point of making it my other job. Maybe one day - my only job. Sure I likely would have picked up the camera more but I don't know that I ever would have begun taking photos for others.

Photography brings me so much joy. I love creating, composing and capturing details of our families life just as much as other families lives. After a great first year in business I am so proud of myself. I am proud that I did something scary. That I tried something new. That I allowed myself time and time again to be "uncomfortable".

I guess this is just my way of saying that even when you think things don't go your way - they just very well might be. You just need to give it a little time.

How simple it is to see that we can only be happy now, and there will never be a time when it is not now.
- Gerald Jamplosky


  1. Love this and love your perspective! Hugs, friend!

  2. This is so true! I was just talking to a good friend about something today exactly along these lines. Sometimes when our reality doesn't match up with what we hoped and dreamed for ourselves, it can still turn out to be a really beautiful thing. (Even if it's hard!)

  3. this reminded me of a quote I saw yesterday..(excuse the floral language if that ain't your thing)
    "sometimes shit happens so the shift can happen"

  4. Love this! You have the best attitude and the best talents. Now if only I could get you to come capture my family!

  5. I love this so much!! My husband and I have been praying and praying over what I should do about work after our babe comes in March. I took a leap of faith and asked work if I could come back part time and they said yes! Such a HUGE blessing!! I am already dreading having to leave her 3 days a week but I know it will be the perfect balance for our family and for me personally. Proud of you mama!

  6. Beautiful - and such a positive outlook my friend x

  7. So true and beautifully written!
    One day I hope you and your crazy, amazing talent will be able to capture a few images of my wild clan.